Exhausted!

Well it is funny. The first couple days that I was back in Saipan I was saying how it was go good to be back and how much energy I had, but that I was sure that would fade a bit very quickly... Well now I am there. I am really really tired! I feel that at the point I am at I should be a lot more ahead and put together. I must admit it is a bit discouraging. The one good thing that about this state is that I am continually falling at God's feet asking Him for insight and strenght!
Right now my class has jumped up to an attendance of 15! However, by the end of Januaury it is going to drop to 13, and by the end of Febuary to 10! I know, quite a difference.
Life to me is like climbing a mountain. Sometimes there are easy paths. but there are also incredibly hard cliffs to scale. I feel like right now I am in the process of climbing one of those cliffs, and I perched on a ledge, exhausted from the climb and trying to find another good hand hold to pull myself up.
I know everyone has times like this, and that in time things will get better and energy will come back. Patience is a virtue I am still acquiring :). The one thing I know is that no matter how tricky and foreboding this cliff looks I am always safe in the knowledge that My Heavenly Father will never let me fall.

Back for the last half!

Well its back to the grind :) I was able to go home for Christmas Break which was a gift from God! I really think I would have had a hard time regrouping my energy and battling homesickness if I had stayed here in Saipan for Christmas. It is amazing how God gives you just what you need!
I must admit. When I was returning back to Saipan it was all I could do to keep getting on planes that were taking me further and further away from my family. I sat in the airport in Hawaii trying to keep the tears that were welling up in my eyes to not come streaming down my cheeks. At that point I began to call on God for His strength. I knew that was to only way that I was going to survive.
Soon after I began to feel better and when I was picked up at the airport I felt like I had just returned to a second home! God surely can work miracles with our thought patterns.
So far the jet lag has not been too bad. I have not been sleeping through the night yet, but at least when I wake up I can fall back to sleep. The work thing that has happened is I have had a headache which lasted all morning from my body trying to adjust back.
I know this last half of the year is going to go incredibly fast. It is my goal to treasure every moment I have with my kids. This opportunity is a gift from God and I intend to make the most of it!